(Char) Emily Writes

In contemplation group you were told to write a letter from yourself to your body (and vice versa.) And my God, you were really horrible to yourself. You called yourself fat, ugly and worthless. Repeatedly, you told yourself to stop eating and that you would have to die if you didn't lose weight. So today, I, your body, am going to write a letter back to you. I'll start of by saying that I understand you were in a really bad place when you said all those things to me. And I would forgive you but you tell me these things daily, even when you're faking one of your "positive" episodes. It has to stop. You wouldn't say these things to anyone else: you wouldn't say them to your mother, your sister, your brother, your friends, or even some random person on the internet. So why are you saying them to your body? It's bullying. Be kind, stop verbally abusing me. When you follow through with these threats of starvation, I feel exhausted. You're a very bu...

It's been a while since I've posted a photography appreciation post. In fact, it's been a while since I've even picked a camera up. There's a part of me that misses it... but then there's the part of me that remembers what an expensive hobby it is. However, recently I was looking through the thousands of photos on my laptop and came across some old photos I took on my film camera back when I first moved to Bristol in 2016. At the time I hated these photos. I took them to a supermarket to get developed (which is something I don't usually do) and they appeared all washed out. Looking back on these in present day, I've really come to appreciate these photos. They look so odd, yet so aesthetically pleasing. Note: I did try and edit these when I first received the developed pictures. However, I want to share the unedited ones because there's so much beauty in them. Some of them are upside down because my computer wouldn't let me rotate them, w...

When my mental health is weighing me down and I'm feeling a bit under the weather (yes, I know, how many cliches can I fit into one sentence?) sometimes practising a self-care routine is just what I need to make me feel more human again. Today, I thought I would share what makes me feel better, even if it's just a tiny bit, so you can hopefully get some inspiration. Go For a Walk Call me weird but I love walking. Especially since I'm lucky enough to spend my time in two very beautiful parts of the UK: Bristol and Cornwall.  Sometimes even just a short walk by myself is enough to blow away the cobwebs. I like to listen to some music and gather up all my thoughts. But sometimes I like to go on mini adventures and explore new and interesting areas. Me and my boyfriend always try to go on a weekly walk and it's a great opportunity for us to just talk about what's bothering us or stressing us out. Eat a Healthy Meal After a nice, long walk I'm usual...

Happy International Women's Day to all of the strong, smart and powerful women out there. We've come so far in the last century but we still have a long way to go. So let's keeping kicking butt and fighting for our rights, for the most vulnerable and for the ignored. This day means a lot to me as I'm surrounded by amazing women who have shaped my life. These women continuously fight the patriarchy and anything else life throws their way and they inspire me to do the same. They don't always get the attention and praise they deserve, so this post is paying a tribute to them. These are the women who continue to inspire me everyday. My Family... Mum. My mum is one of the strongest people I know. She has raised me and my two siblings alone, kept food in our bellies and a roof over our heads. The world has given her a lot of shit: abuse, mental health issues, poverty... but she continues to fight back. How she continues to go on amazes me, I could never do...